Monday, August 16, 2010

But you have saved the best for last


Today I read in John (I like John...)
about how God saves the best for last-
how through Jesus we know what grace and love look like.
I liked the bit about the wedding feast at Cana- how Jesus' meddling mother pushed him to turn the water into wine. The head waiter said something cool- I'm sure you already know but I'll say it anyway- Most people serve the good wine first- then serve the junky wine after everyone is already drunk- But not God. Not Jesus.
After all the good stuff- after all the best times...
it's never, oh- and now it's all over- those sure were great times! but never more.
God knows our hearts- our deep places.
and even after we cant even feel it because we drank ourselves silly with all the old ways,
he gives us something more- better- greater.
It's how we know what grace and love is.

I think I took this home for many reasons,
but the foremost of them (at least, the one that's on my mind right now)
is something I was stuck on for a long time.
For a long time, I always thought my time during high school,
when God had me leading CrossFire - a weekly 50+ person Bible Study was it.
I had all these dreams and plans built around the Ryan I was then.
I thought it was the best God had to offer.
And when I went to Missouri for college
I went to the desert lands (spiritually speaking)
it was my Arabia.
God didn't speak to me like back then
I felt like I was dying
-so dry I almost forgot the smell of rain.
I was so full of life I got moldy.
And so in the humidity of the midwest I was dried out again.
I am convinced I am constantly, perpetually, being made into a new creation.
I don't know where I'll go or what I'll do-
But I know God always has even more to give and to show me.
That's how I see it.
That's how I know it.

I know that no one really reads this blog- but if you do, I hope you get something from it.

I don't know how to explain it- but it's best when it's raining. when it's quiet God says something to me.

When I prayed this morning while I drove to work that God would open up my senses to him,
then, at work, he is. Right now.

And I feel like I wasn't really living all the time before. I felt as if I had just gone from very small to very large- and the world was spinning all around me.

God has something better for me.

Thank you.

2 comments:

  1. Ryan,
    Someone did read your blog -- and I am praying for you and your bride everyday! God will reveal Himself to you... you are not alone in the desert places. I'm there myself. And God is with us!

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